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Yesterday, when we took the doggos for a walk, I shared a story with you about how that morning I rolled out of bed and the alarm went off.
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First thing we had to do was take our daughter to school.
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But the first thought I had was I took my mask off and I was like, man, that sun is so amazingly bright in this room.
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It's such a beautiful day.
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And I thought this all happened within 20 seconds.
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I'm not talking about a full-on like morning ritual or anything like that.
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These were just my first automatic thoughts.
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And I thought, oh, I have so many things I want to work on today.
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I have so much stuff I have to get done for our business, for the podcast, uh, for our family.
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And I was so excited to go do all the stuff and just get the day started.
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And I hopped out of bed with a little bit of a pep in my step, which is not my norm, as you know.
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I'm not, I'm not a good morning person.
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Oh, I know.
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So I was reflecting back on why, how I was able to get out of bed like that, because that's never been a thing for me.
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And I was reflecting back years ago when I would roll over, wake up, my alarm would go off, and I would my thoughts were not that positive.
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They were like, ugh, yeah.
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Did I just wake up again to this life that I have to get out of bed and go live and do the things that I don't want to do?
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You were depressed.
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I was severely depressed.
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I was very I was fighting like anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts every day, all day.
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It was a battle.
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Yeah.
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And I never in a million years at that time would have thought that someday I would be able to wake up and have those feelings of being excited to get my day started and work on the things I want to work on.
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Yeah, that that's an amazing feeling.
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It's amazing.
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And it uh it set the tone for my whole whole day.
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Yeah.
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Oh yeah.
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And I ne again, just never thought that those feelings were available to me because I had never experienced it before.
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Yeah, I believe it.
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Yeah, it was pretty amazing.
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And what do you think, what makes you think that trigger uh those emotions or that emotion uh that morning?
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Well, I mean, it it's a culmination of many things um for the past two years of all the hard work that I've been putting in to myself and working on me.
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Um, but we had also just gotten back from the Silva Method seminar in San Diego, California, which was hosted by D Divine Grace.
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She was fantastic.
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Oh, yeah, she was awesome.
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And it was a four-day seminar, four-day immersion.
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I think they break it in two parts, like the Silva Live system and the Silva Intuition System.
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That's right.
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So it's two days and two days.
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We did both, was from 9 to 7 p.m.
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was amazing.
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And I think uh Kim, after being there for four days in San Diego, doing all this meditation, connecting with all the people.
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Yeah, learning the tools and techniques.
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That kind of really gives you, I think, a boost.
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A boost or so.
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I needed the reset though.
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We both did for sure.
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Yeah, I needed it too, because when you send me the link when you found it, and then you're like, hey, can't still have a meth, there's a still a method in San Diego.
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Yeah.
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And when I saw it, I was like, oh wow, yeah, we need this.
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Yeah.
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I need this.
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I I took it personal.
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Yeah.
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You know, and when I saw the name, her name Divine, you know, for some reason it clicked.
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Something gave me like a good vibe from far away.
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Yeah.
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Well, we're not too far, but you know, like 350 miles or so.
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Yeah.
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But still, you know, it's not like she's my neighbor.
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But yeah, I was just, I was reading about it, about the whole thing, and it was just like, yeah, this kind of feels right.
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You know, I this is after I lost my job, looking like, okay, you know, how can I keep me motivated?
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And you know, I need to move forward.
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Yeah, gain clarity.
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Gain clarity.
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Focus.
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Absolutely.
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Yeah.
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So it was awesome.
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It was was great, you know, exhausting was was great.
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Again.
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And I feel like now I approach life in a different way.
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Um, my meditations or my prayers has a different meaning now.
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Um I feel more aligned.
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I feel more uh productive, even though I know it's just been what two days or so since we came back.
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But I feel like my my engine is ready to go, you know, which is which is great.
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Yeah, she was fantastic.
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She really did a great job of instructing the class and telling um her stories that I think people could relate to.
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And she made she the tools and techniques that she was teaching, you know, through her stories made it more sound more achievable, made it sound like you know, we can all do this.
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We all have this ability to use these tools and techniques.
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And I think that was really important uh for her to instill in people because I a lot of the or some of the people in the room were new to the work and brand new.
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Actually, one of the men there said that he had never meditated before.
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Yeah.
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And he was there with his wife also, and he was facing a new facing something new in his life, different it was, it was retirement, I guess.
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Yes.
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So he was just looking for clarity and and purpose, I think, and she did a great job of being all inclusive of all walks of life and teaching the things.
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Yeah, this thought just came to me.
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I know we've been talking about meditation, and for a lot of people, meditation sounds like, what the heck?
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Like, I have no time to meditate.
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Like what are you talking about, meditate?
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But we've been meditating for so long, but we just don't know.
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We just don't, you know, if you go back You just don't call it meditation because you're not aware that that's what it actually is.
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If we go back years, years ago, uh we've been praying for so long.
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And for me, it's prayer is some sort of a slash meditation.
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If you really go back to, I don't know, tribes or the Indians or so, they used at night, they used to, yeah, their gods were the stars or the moon, and they used to dance, and they used to do all these things.
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How come that we needed, you know, the to to celebrate, to gather around the fire and look at the stars and kind of connect with something, you know what I mean, and expect what what they were expecting.
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They were expecting rain, they were expecting God, whoever whatever God they were believing back then, right, to show up, to bring hope, to bring power, to bring, I don't know, food or animals.
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I don't know what the heck they were thinking back then, but there was some sort of meditation happening, yeah, you know, some sort of channeling, you know, for them to really thrive, right?
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You know, in their tribes.
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Yeah.
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And the the thing is, like you say, like prayer is like along the same lines of meditation for you, is that's your experience.
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And that's the thing, is you know, so many people pray, but they would never say, Oh, I meditate.
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But prayer, you know, is a form of meditation, but that's exactly kind of what the Silva method is teaching you how to do is how to hone those skills and make it more impactful.
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Because so many people pray, but they don't get what they want.
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And they're they don't they their life isn't unfolding the way they want it to because they're not using the proper techniques and tools.
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They're just saying, Oh, I hope I I hope I get this or I wish for that, or I wish for health, or I wish for, you know, money or a relationship, but those that's not the proper techniques.
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They are doing it without a f without intention and they don't even know it.
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Right.
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Because if you go right now into a prayer or whatever, if you're just gonna say, Oh man, I wish I just I wish I just like meet someone.
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Right.
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But are you really setting the intention?
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Right.
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You think that you are like setting the intention, but you're not.
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You're just gonna throw in words out there.
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But if you're like, man, you know what?
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I know I want to meet someone, you know, uh my soulmate or whatever, I'm gonna or today I'm gonna get a good job.
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You know, I'm gonna get a call.
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I know I can feel it.
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So you put that intention in the universe, just like the Indians used to be doing back then near the fire.
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They were just setting up their intentions, you know.
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And when you do that, when you when you know how to do it, and with the Silva training, uh she taught us some techniques where we kind of basically focus, you know, in your inner mind and how to connect with source or God or whatever you believe in in uh to really accomplish things, you know.
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In a state of mind that we're all capable of.
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Yeah.
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And um and just so just to back up a second, but I just wanted to give a quick synopsis of what the Silva training actually is, just to clarify.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, clarify.
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Um, it's essentially like a system for training your mind through meditation, visualization, and other mental exercises in order to improve clarity, intuition, creativity, focus, and decision making, and so many other things.
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Yeah.
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So it's just again a method and tools and techniques of how to hone your skill in order to be able to create this a life that you truly love versus just letting it unfold.
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That was our kind of our main purpose for being there, is is that.
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Yeah, and it's great because again, like when I close my eyes, I'm going with full intention now.
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Okay, again, what are you creating?
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You know, everything that has been created in the world in the world was uh thought at some point.
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Yeah.
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So again, we're just going to basics, yeah, think deeper, get the the ideas flowing, you know.
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And so I think after Silva, I think, you know, that we just have a great, great tool to to accomplish a lot of things, and I feel excited about it.
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Yeah, same.
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And Ken, I was really hoping that I'd I don't know if you want to discuss this story, but I'm gonna kind of put you on the spot.
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I was hoping that you would share the story that you shared with me about this very podcast.
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Oh.
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Alright, so one of the meditations that we did uh with Divine in San Diego uh was to basically just about to really go into a meditative state and to think, what's your life purpose?
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Yeah, that was a good one.
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And well, you're sitting there, you know, all the phones are in airplane mode or so, and you're just basically, you know, meditating, thinking, okay, what's your life purpose?
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And then she was saying the whole time, it feel if it feels like it's uh made up, it that's actually the right the right answer.
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Correct, yeah.
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So and then I'm like going into my deep meditation thinking and you know, try to think of like what's my life purpose.
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And I couldn't the only word that showed up for some reason was podcast.
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Yeah.
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You know, and I wrote it down.
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Okay, podcast.
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Some other words or some other ideas came to me, you know, and then she was saying, Okay, just write it down.
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Whatever is coming to your mind, you know.
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Even if it I think what you're getting at is like, even if it felt forced, like it feels forced, like, oh, this should be my answer, she said, No, just write down whatever comes to your mind.
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So the word came in and you wrote it down.
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And I wrote it down, yeah.
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I was just yeah.
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And again, and here I am, uh recording another episode, uh hoping to guide and help others and share my story, you know, share share our story.
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That's the main reason.
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I'm gonna push you a little deeper on that one though, because you're you're glazing over the fact that I want to get to.
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So when we took a break after that exercise, I'm talking to Ken and I'm asking, so what what came up for you?
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And he showed me like his list of words or notes that he wrote down, and the first one was podcasts, and I thought, hmm, did you really come up with that or are you writing that to kind of appease me?
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And you said no.
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You said no, that that was the first word that came up for me, right?
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Yeah, yeah.
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So it was like an authentic feeling, which of course got me excited because I, as I've told you, I've I'm feeling like a little resistance with you, like whether or not you want to go on this journey with me for the podcast.
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Yeah, no, it's always a fear that, you know, for anything, not only the podcast, for for anything, right?
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Right.
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The unknown.
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Even even if you get a new job, you're gonna be nervous the first week.
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Yeah.
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You know, even if you have experience 20 years, because I worked with people that had uh was working in another field or another industry for 20 years, and they showed up to the office and I'm seeing them and they look just like little babies.
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They don't know, they're awkward, you know what I mean?
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They're they're just they're smart, but they're like they're nervous, they don't know the system, they don't know, you know what I mean, the flow.
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So even if you have tons of experience, you always have this kind of fear in the beginning.
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Uh same with the business, you know, if you if you have a if you're selling stuff, yeah, you know, you're like hoping, okay, I'm gonna open the doors, but I I hope that I sell my stuff, my products or my services.
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Same with the podcast, like, well, now I'm gonna be recording for hours, editing, and sharing my life with strangers or whatever.
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And like, I don't know, what am I doing?
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This, you know, like, but something is telling me, hey, just just do it.
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You know, just a difference there.
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Something else we were talking about this morning is there's like an inner knowing versus an an inner hoping.
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Like just like when we were moving to Arizona, you know, how many times I hoped to be able to move to Arizona because my mom was out here throughout like 10 years.
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I was like hoping someday, like I'm gonna move to Arizona.
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I was, you know, someday that's what I want.
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Yeah.
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But when we decided that this is what we need to do to improve our lives, and we decided that this is the path we need to be on, it was an inner knowing.
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And it was it it felt different this time, that time.
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It felt different, like, oh, okay, this is what we're doing versus this is what I want to do.
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Right.
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And it's it sounds very basic when nice put it into words, but like in my mind, it just it's like a click that just made all the difference.
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Like, oh, okay, this is what we're doing now versus that's just something I want.
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So I have that with the podcast.
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I have the same fears of, are we just wasting our time here?
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Like editing, recording, and putting all this time and effort into it.
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Of course, those fears creep in for me, but ultimately I have this inner knowing that we're just doing it this time.
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We're just doing it.
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And actually, uh throughout the the four-day weekend, I I felt that same inner knowing.
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And I got clarification and I got people there that we met in the group.
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I kind of got validation through them.
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They weren't even aware that they were validating me.
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Yeah.
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Or us, but they did through their through their actions and through their words, they were validating that we need to be doing this.
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This is the work that we need to be doing.
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Yeah, yeah.
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And again, we're just acting with more intention and less less guessing per se.
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So you're kind of hey, just do it.
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Just do it.
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Just move.
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Just keep doing the steps that you need to do to get to the goal.
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Just keep taking the next step, even if you don't know what it is.
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Yeah.
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It's like you just keep going.
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Yeah, if it doesn't work, move on to the next.
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Right.
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Because now you kinda have like another experience, right?
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Yeah.
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So that was awesome.
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It was actually very, very great.
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Um Do you want to talk about like the stories of the people that validated things for us?
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Sure.
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One of the big moments, I guess, was um on the last day on Sunday, you kind of raised your hand and just started talking.
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Oh no, okay, no, no.
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What happened was just like uh Rodivine was like, You guys are so quiet.
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Oh yeah.
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So everyone was kind of quiet.
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I think we have like a mix of believers and non-believers.
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You know what I mean?
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I I think, you know, again, like I think at that point everybody was believing.
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Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Absolutely.
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But walking in, yeah, there was uncertainty.
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Those that are still like trying to understand the whole process, understand the whole meditation techniques, going deeper, yeah, the concepts, going deeper into your inner you and and connect to the universe or God or the source or whatever, you know, try to kind of put all those thoughts together and the energy, and again, it was exhausting, so many hours, you know.
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Yeah, it was it was a lot of mental work.
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Oh, yeah.
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Our brain was fried.
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But then I kind of wanted to to share our story in a little bit, you know, because I I felt like again, our story is always gonna bring some sort of like that's like a we put like a light uh on people's path.
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Yeah.
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You know, so that was my intention.
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But I don't remember, what did I say?